life seems to be heading nowhere at present. yes, ive got the job. but it always seems that the motivation is lacking.im hoping against hope that when pallavi gets here things will be allright.its as if i just dont have any reason any drive to work in any dept. i think when i start the job things might be different. i cant imagine working in a job which i cant enjoy. im trying to get in the groove while im doing the attachment in a&e. im trying to get things done. im hoping that things might work. im exceptionally depressed today. my ..my.the last of the optimists!! should have gone home...bu tthen i couldnt study. c'est la vie!!
sometimes i feel im not mature enough.too young to handle all this.but then i ve seen younger do better..thats what drives me on.i shudder to think what would happen if i get married and im still this immature. i hate it.im not assertive enough either....what is this ..im so full of myself today. anyway enough of me. ive gotta get back to studying.