time....

i once heard jeremy clarkson say..." a good song is one which u may hear with a thousand people around you, but u still feel it's being sung just for you. you feel you r the only one who understands the true meaning of the song." i have a song like that..its "time" by pink floyd.
what is so great about this song? well for one it has been immortalised by the patron saints of music- pink floyd! its also known for its dark yet meaningful lyrics and its ability to be absolutely down to earth, as well as deeply philosophical at the same time! one who undrstands this song feels that the song is describing their life at some point in time- past or present.
there is a particular part in the song.....

And you run and you run,
to catch up with sun,
but its sinking,
racing around to come up behind you again.
The sun is the same in a relative way but you're older,
shorter of breath, one day closer to death.

how apt is that!! it symbolises, in words as simple as they could ever be, the stereotypic, a times pointless nature of our lives and existence. the words- simple, the meaning- explicit!
another portion in the song goes-

every year is getting shorter,
never seem to find the time.
times that either turn to nought,
or half a day to swim about.
hanging on a quiet desperation,is the english way.
the time is gone, the song is over,
thought i had something more to say.

my life is exactly in this phase right now. time is whizzing by me at a speed i just cant seem to keep up with. in whatever time i feel i have with me i end up doing things that i dont enjoy a lot, but neither can make the best out of. why is this? sometimes you r told to do only the things that u enjoy doing, else make sure u are the best in what u dont enjoy..that makews it worthwhile. i am doing neither. i feel ill end up doing stuff that will never get me anywhere and one day when my time is up i feel ill be left wanting more. is this normal..or am i just plain , fucking depressed. i hope its the latter. coz i dont want this depressed motherfucker to be the normla me!!
i have always tried to make the most of whatever i have and enjoy it to the fullest. so sue me! ive done it before and will continue doing so.
its my life..ill liveit the way i want!
my god that is enough brainstorming for one night.gotta sleep!! must close eyes. mus not watch t.v!!...fight..sleep!!